Trying

Tonight I'm wondering whether it is possible to truly have a social life while juggling two large academic commitments, a full time job, and being able to pursue hobbies. I really have not read a book for fun yet this summer. Nor have I actually left my room too much each week night. People keep saying that something has to change, but nothing has. Tonight we had a "social event" for summer research students. Good chance to meet people - in fact, I met my next door neighbor!

I've been thinking a lot about integrity lately. Not just the usual bits about the corruption in politics, but rather what it means for individuals. To whom are we responsible to in our daily lives? So much of my faith rests in God, but sometimes I just wonder about the responsibilities to others and myself. It is all too easy to say to not worry about what others think and do what you think is best for you. Yet it is hard when you've asked people favors and do not want their time to go to waste. Nor do you want to completely change your mind after convincing them and yourself that your original choice was right. Except what if it isn't? Is that really being fair? Perhaps the hardest part is admitting that something is wrong. Now that sounds a bit like admitting to an addiction? But can't people just get caught up in participating in activities before realizing that it's not too late to leave? Honesty on a local level...